Do You Remember?

do you remember?
at first our relationship is so dysfunctional.
i swore that i'll never love you, which turned out to be the biggest lie ever told.

do you remember?
everybody thinks and says we are so different.
but, like magnets with different pole, we can't resist but to stick together.

do you remember?
people said i was wrong,
but now i realize i have to be wrong in their eyes sometimes to get what's worth.


do you remember?
i was a quite a mess,
proud of my doubt of love,
but you never give up on me.


do you remember?
i cried and cursed at you,
but you took my hand and never let go.

do you remember?
you made me cry,
then you made me laugh, as I'm the happiest person alive.

do you remember?
all the things that we've been through,

all the wishes we whisper in prayer,
will you remember?

Unika Atma Jaya

well,
no more high school.
no more old-fashioned white and gray.

from now on, college awaited.

and this time, my heart was set on this place.

who is supposed to tell me

well sorry blog, life's business, tasks even bliss take you away from me.
blame 'em.

okay so this is the many-eth time i dumped my bf over.
yes, that same boyfriend since the first of my story begin. he, that same guy.
that same guy makes me laugh then cry.
makes me love then leave.

well that's not the problem.
at some points everybody has to face it anyway.
the problem indeed, is,
this breaking up scene has been some kind of habit to me.
we go through something, i don't like it, i mad, we mad, i gone mad, thinking better off is without him, become sure of it,then break up.
and then i become lonely, wish he was here, text him, pick up his call,then make up.
this become like some kind of a painful goddamn cycle to me -to both of us.

"When you are single all you see is happy couples.
When you are in a relationship all you see is happy single people"
@DamnItsTrue

and i was like "Damn, it's true!"

WHAT DO I WANT?

write therapy

yes, i dumped my boyfriend.
u could say so i u want to.
but the truth is, i didn't exactly dumped him, in any meaning.
i just ended our pathetic, unhealthy, dysfunctional relationship.
someone has gotta do it anyway.

yes.

and that someone is hurting inside, too.
she feels SOME PAINs. too.
and yet she did it, bearing the hurt, killing the pain,
trying hard to survive and not to drowned inside those overwhelmed memories.
and yes tears rolls down her face when she saw her pictures with you.
there are many of them, unfortunately.
and yes her heart throbs abnormally when she saw u downtown or anywhere else and it hurts like a hypodermic needle, and what makes it even more hurtful is that it's so transparent so u can see the blood runs leaving ur body so cheerfully ahaha i'm beggining to babble again babble babble without even knowing where i'm going.

well the point is,
Thank God, to my rescue,
there's this thingy.
i called it write therapy and it describes its own definition perfectly.
u may think i'm babbling around meaninglessly - yes in fact i am- but u may hv no idea what good this done to me.

yeaa ahh.
go babblin' go babblin' go.

BLAJAR!

BLAJARR!
huuuufffth
they often rushed all over my head lately

dan yg bs gw lakukan hanyalah memikirkan hal2 menyenangkan yg bisa & akan gw lakukan,
SETELAH SEMUA INI BERAKHIR!!

yeaaaahh.

dan, membuat semua ini jadi (setidaknya) sdkit lebih menyenangkan.
misalnya dgn ini :


lolz
hahaha
apaan sih.
keadaan ini sdkit-bnyk membuatku gila -at any rate.
lolz

luckiest girl on earth (and that's not jz bcoz today is my bday lolz)

dedicated to k ayn, tirza, ellen, jane

1st of all,
THANK YOU THANK YOU very much 4 k ayn,
4 the late night visit,
4 the cake,
4 those candles,
4 the red cute shoes (love it) =)
4 those surprises,
4 being there perfectly in time,
4 every hug,
4 every minute,
4 every light,
4 every bliss,
4 understanding me better from any other person,
4 everything i've ever had until now,
and have i told you, that u're the best boyfriend in the world? :)
thank you just soooo daaaamn muuuuuuch.
i've never enjoyed this kind of day this much ^^
<3 uuuu

aaaaand,
4 Tirza, Ellen and everybody there, whose name written on those red-black-white cards,
thank youuuu so much just 4 everything.lolz (maap potonya belom sempet d kirim2 & upload2)
4 the awesome cake,
4 each of those 44 cards,
4 everything lah pokonya.


TIRTJEEEEEE!!

(gga, gaada apapa, cma pgen teriak aja, lolz)

oiya,
thank u 4 the video,
4 those pictures which took too long to crop and pair, which has suffer a lot of editing, lolz
thank you sooo much,
u ROCK.

aaaandd theeeen,
REJEJEJEEEEE..
i wish i could also share everything -all that i am now, everything i had and everything my heart ever feel - with youuuu.
but, apalah boleh dikata, jarak jua yang memisahkan kita *tsaaaaaah*
but u know what,
we're still soooooo damn close in the heart, i just can feel it :)
thank u 4 all wishes,
thank u 4 always being there 4 me despite the distance between us 2.
we'll remain best-friends 4ever, cross my heart :)


that's all 4 now.
thank you 4 everything that ever gotta be my reason to be THE LUCKIEST GIRL ON EARTH (and that's not jz bcoz today is my bday lolz)

<3 style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">..btw maap ya pake b. inggris,
kebiasaan kalo di blog.

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juz a quickie post
rasanya aneh ya
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