this old new year thing

I've been busy replying New Year greeting from all over the world,



stillcan't even find any single reason why in the world should I do that.


and, due to my current facebook status that's sayin

. .what's new year but a time to find the world a year older but not even an hour better, time to find yourself fail another 'new year resolution' you've been hanging on a tree, time to find everything's as lame as it used to be back then just like last year and the years before. .

they should realize earlier that they greet the wrong person.

yeah for short i never care bout all this cheap trumpet, fireworks and countdown thingy.
it drives me crazy every year to find this rotating planet a lil more obsolate than before, to find myself living in it for free jz to make it suffer a lil more, to find myself gazing at a piece of paper i wrote exactly a year ago that's sayin what i should've been doing before the calendar reaches its last page again.

this old new year thing,
got me choked on the neck,
drown me all over with regrets,
cz i waste everything i have n never realize it 'till it's gone.

this year i hv already turn 17,
and I MISS my childhood.
and if i look behind me in the timeline,
i can't even find anything worth the time that's given.
regrets r always useless, but the attempt to forget it is as useless as regretting itself.
so what should i do?

every new year with another old regrets.
wishing so bad to turn back time.
to correct all those mistakes.
to do better.
mayb i can try to do better,





, next year.


yeah, that's the problem.
next year won't be better.







no, I mean,
IT WILL :)

this would be the last post for this year cz a few hours from now,
it's no longer 2009.





regretfully but optimistly,
Welcome, 2010.